endless beginnings…
hey hey hey…see who’s back to write and read? its me..of course…. ha ha.. got a lot to say…but dont know how and what to say..well…first thing’s first..I have actually started working…ha ha…..work..ha ha…bliss? my foot.. I just hate it hear….compromise is what I’ve been doing with myself…compromising and giving up what I really wanted to do…well…do I know what I really want? err..well…that’s definitely a no….I have got really confused…people say when you are in love you do thing’s that you don’t know why…am not in love mind it…rather am not even close to love……dont even have somebody to love yet..ha ha… ![]()
but the truth is that I have become confused…well..I’ve always been confused…but never this much….u know what I do all day? I sit in front of a pc..plug in my ipod…boot the pc up…play some music…check mails…check out the tasks assigned to me..start working on them….shit man….since when did I become so organized? weekends? I really get scared of those..I really hate going to the same old shopping malls..same old multiplexes…same old hip and happening crowd…see…its 5mins to go for the clock to strike 3am…am still up..why? just coz its a weekend…and I dont have anyone to talk to..
what if I had somebody to talk to? what I talk bout? do I have anything to say? I really dont know..see how confused I am? I really dont know what I want…. everything in the world is going towards a certain goal…I have none…feels good sometimes..but sometimes its so damn confusing….its like am stuck in an endless loop where there is no exit criteria..ha ha….thinking like a programmer again
…I write programs that solve problems of other’s…I find out what people want…but look at me…am so confused myself..I dont even know myself…what the f…